September 12, 2007
HappinessThere are moments of absolute joy in this life.
And it takes all the moments in between
to appreciate them.
posted by Adam at 02:40 |
September 07, 2007
Homesickness?Just now, my roommate was in the bathroom and I really had to go. I was on the verge of stepping outside to piss off the back stair, when I realized there was no back stair, that I was living in the middle of a city and would very likely be arrested if I did so. It was the first time since I was dropped off this year that I felt really, truly homesick. Last year it came in flashes. The two years before, it completely wrecked me right out of the gate. This year the homesickness has been nudged aside by another feeling: the feeling that, as I sit around living a comfortable existence treading water, the best parts of life were already almost past and continuously slipping through my grasp with each day that passes. It's not that I don't miss my parents: I do. It's that I'm finally realizing that only loving your parents isn't quite enough going into the future. Like home — childhood — is this little jewelry box of wonderful things, but there's a whole room around that jewelry box waiting to be explored. If you keep focused on how you're not inside the jewelery box any more, you completely miss the rest of the room that you have to explore. And once you realize that the room is there, you feel like you were distracted when they handed out the flashlights to guide your way forward. My bladder might very possibly explode if that shit doesn't clear out pretty soon. Friday Sept. 07 2:19 am
posted by Adam at 02:19 |
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